I’m quite an emotional person. I cry when I watch movies. I cry when I watch TV shows. Sometimes I even cry when I watch commercials. I’m also prone to crying when other people cry. And sometimes I don’t cry, when maybe I should. I cry when I’m sad. I cry when I’m happy. I cry when I’m angry and frustrated. Though I can’t cry on demand, I’ve never struggled with showing my emotions. Sometimes I’ve felt that I show them too much. Having an argument with someone, and then crying because I’m so frustrated or hurt, or whatever it may be isn’t always the best. Or trying to tell someone how you feel about something, and then being surprised with emotions that you didn’t expect.
Dealing with crying, or being emotional when you don’t want to be can be frustrating, and can sometimes make you feel like you’re not going to get your point across the way you want to. Most of the time, people (including myself) will apologize for crying. But then I remember that my mom has always told me that I should never apologize for being emotional. If you’re crying because you are happy, or sad, or are touched and moved by something, it’s not a bad thing. Being emotional lets us know how we feel about something. I remember the day I realized that I was going to marry Christopher, and my eyes started to water as I had that personal inspiration. Many times when I’ve tried to explain to well-meaning people why we don’t have kids yet, I can get emotional because dealing with anxiety about something that you don’t want to be experiencing anxiety about is a difficult thing, and my body is letting me know that it’s not just all in my head. I’m not sure if that makes any sense. I’ve just been thinking about this a lot lately, when someone apologizes for crying, I think why? Being emotional is a wonderful thing. It lets me know you care what you are talking about, being emotional lets you know that maybe it’s time to slow down, and breathe. Being emotional makes the precious moments of life even more precious.
Though it can be frustrating not being able to get your words out, because you’re too busy choking back the tears, being emotional is one of those wonderful things that makes us human, and we should never apologize for being human.